Superwoman

You thought to pull me down,
drag me through the mud,
rake burning coals over my bleeding heart.

You sought to strip me of my dignity,
lay my soul bare,
reduce me to a quivering mass of shame.

You schemed to rob me of my faith,
render me insensate,
leave me wrung out; a dirty dish cloth.

But...

I came out spotless,
my bleeding heart cooling the coals,
turning them into cold, innocuous ashes.

I hold my head up high,
striding with confident steps,
my dignity, a shining robe.

I emerged with nary a wrinkle,
entirely sentient,
and my faith...

grows...
grows...
grows.

666

just watched a show on E! THS on cults, mind control and religions. the programme explored various cults and mind control groups in the USA. it sent a chill running down my spine and made me realize how close the end is. trust me, i'm the first person to scoff at those who preach about the "end times". i just cannot believe the God i believe in could be so cruel as to unleash hell fire and damnation on His children, which is also not to say there won't be any recriminations from our actions. i believe in living my life to please God and know that nothing can separate me from the Love of God. on the other hand, i know i am a sinner and try and make amendments for my sins. i liken it a situation between a child and it's parent. when a child is naughty, parents scold and teach him right from wrong, sometimes with a little punishment to deter the child. God is our parent, teaching us right from wrong but above all, He is Love! and i know he loves me no matter what.

so it suprises me how people can get confused and allow themselves to be led astray from the love of Christ. and it also suprises me how people can twist the Word of God to support their twisted beliefs. Jose Luis De Jesus Miranda (hope i got the name right) is a man claiming to be the reincarnation of Jesus Christ and yet says he's better than Jesus because Jesus in his day came to save sinners but he Jose, believes that there are NO sinners and basically you can do whatever you want without fear because absolutely nothing can separate you from the love of God, thereby totally negating God's Purpose of sending Jesus to die for us. Ironically he also claims that the sign 666 embodifies him and all his followers wear clothes which 666 written on them and have the sign tattoed on. Jose lives in Miami and broadcasts his services on satelite tv, reaching millions of people. he has garnered thousands of followers already. hearing some of his followers speak generated goosebumps that are yet to subside. people are lost in this world and are seeking answers and what scares me is the fact that most of them will turn to people like Jose Miranda for those answers when all they have to do listen to that still small voice.

i am not a preacher, neither am i an overzealous christian. i am just a human being also seeking to find my purpose in life with a (sometimes) unshakeable faith in Christ that everything that happens in my life is His will. i am spiritual, not religious. i do not care about charismatics or pentecostals or catholicism or islam, budheism or any other kind of religion. it is what is between you and God which is important. religion is just a medium to reach God, not to live with him. God exists. He is everywhere, in your neighbour, in the little bird building its nest, in the person sitting beside on the bus... you do not have to go so far to find him. he's where he is supposed to be: right there in your heart. Listen to Him. He's waiting....

forever the eternal otimist....

Crossroads

i just graduated from university earlier this year. university life was a wonderful experience and i wouldn't change it for the world. now the challenge begins. i kept putting off thoughts of life but i realize now that i am at the stage where i need to take control of my own life. all my life, i have been taken care of. i have never had to worry about what food, shelter, all the basic necessities of life and i thank my loving parents for that. but now, it makes me wonder if being brought up this way has adversely affected me. i cannot seem to pick myself up and make something of my life. i cannot seem to decide what i want to do with my life because i think someone will come up and make those decisions for me. on the other hand, i know that is ludicrous thinking and i have to live my own life but it is difficult. may be i am not the only person facing this problem but it scares me that i may not be able take control of life. i find myself apathetic regarding absolutely everything! it's like i am standing at the edge of a precipice, looking longingly back at the beautiful green field behind me, but knowing i have to take that step, fall into the abyss and eventually land on my feet in that vague, murky piece of land i can see in the distance. what is ahead of me? will i succeed? am i sure i want to do this? those are a few of the questions running through my head every single minute of every day. it makes me want to curl up into a ball and never peek out at the world. but alas! that is impossible! so i'll keep these words in mind, :if at first you don't succeed, try, try, try again".

forever the eternal optimist...